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Ere the World Falls by kaasknot, thor & loki + frigga & loki, berserker!thor, role reversal au, 5.9k
    "The sonic boom ripped through the sky over Asgardís capital, rattling windows in their casements and scaring clouds of pigeons into the air. It overlapped with a deafening crack, and the combined reverberations, enough to set the dust of the streets shivering into the air, vibrated through Lokiís chest. He frowned, looking up from the doll-like mask of the SvartŠlfar corpse he was examining. He knew that sound. Catching the eye of the einheri captain beside him, he tilted his head in silent command. 'It seems my brother has come home,' he said. 'We should give him a proper welcome.'Ē
    It probably helps to have read Id Est Furor before this fic, for all that this is a prequel to that one, but you can read them separately. And, oh, this fic is gorgeous, it is everything I have wanted out of berserker!Thor, which is a blend of dark!Thor and yet... while the spirit is not the same, there are elements of how canon!Thor could have almost gone down this path. It's difficult to explain, that this isn't a Divergent Timeline AU, but neither is it wholly divorced from canon. Whatever that line it manages to walk, it really worked for me super hard. It completely satisfies the itch I had (and more!) for further stories in this universe and one of the things that it really nails is that Loki is still Loki here, that he's on the path of good, but he's still favoring cunning over supposed honor, he's still holding onto resentments just a little too long. As well as Thor is gloriously terrifying here and the writing for the little details and the world-building are stunning here. This is one of the best fics I've read for Asgard in the movies, how it captures the feel of their magic and technology, along with gorgeous Loki characterization and emotionaly satisfaction of his interactions with both Frigga and Thor. This is absolutely brilliant and I would read 100k of this easily.

Lullaby by SkiesOverGideon, frigga & loki, 3.5k
    Frigga loves Loki. He will always be her precious child, no matter his age.
    In a way, I'm almost sorry that I read this fic, because it brought up so many, many intense feelings in me, with how much Frigga loves Loki, how she knows what will happen, how things are so sweet and bright in the beginning, and I, too, know how they will end up. By the time I was done, I had a fine mist in my eyes from Frigga's view of Loki's journey from baby to adult and how beautifully this was written. I am in utter love with this Frigga, who is kind and caring and full of love, but also every inch an Asgardian queen whose wrath is frightening when she's angry. This Frigga is exactly what I hope for in this universe, someone who truly sees her son and loves him dearly. And, oh, the writing is gorgeous and the characterization perfect and heartbreaking in all the most brilliant of ways.

Understanding the Storm: Prelude by Lizardbeth, frigga & loki + thor + odin, some odin/frigga, 3k
    If a parent shouldn't outlive her own child, how much worse is it when her child should be immortal? On Asgard Frigga mourns until she gets surprising news.
    This is a prelude to the bigger story, but it sets things up well, focusing on Frigga's character and the overarching reactions she has to the loss of Loki and the news of his return, the first time she sees him again when he's brought back to Asgard. This is lovely because it focuses on her feelings and her place in Loki's life and his place in hers, that she truly understands him in a way that few do, both the good and bad parts of him, and her bias is for the good, yet not blind. That she knows he may well be playing a bigger game here, but sees even beyond that, to the potential still in him, is so lovely here. It's a gorgeous start to this series.

Understanding the Storm by Lizardbeth, frigga & loki, 4.2k
    Long ago, she held him in her arms and refused to let him go. She's still holding on, even when it breaks her heart to see what he's become.
    This is where the author really ratchets things up a notch in the careful stepping done with these characters and the arguments they make and the way they see each other. This is the first step towards what I've been pining for in this fandom--Frigga refusing to give up her darling son, no matter how lost in his madness and poison he seems to be. From the moment she held that baby in her arms to the loss of him to the return of the one who stands before her, he has always been her son, and this fic is another prelude, but it already does so much to show the utter steel of this woman, even as it's wielded with such a soft, gentle touch. The conversation is fantastic, how Frigga slow starts to peer behind the words Loki says, to parse through what he's saying, what is truth and what is misdirection and what is a mix of the two. It's a gorgeous fic, for both characters, and I could not love it more.

The Poison Rain by Lizardbeth, frigga & loki, frigga & thor, thor & loki, odin/frigga, 36k
    Frigga and Thor battle Loki to save him from himself. Words are Frigga's weapons and love is her strength, and she will not surrender this fight.
    It would help to have read the first two stories in this series before this one, as they serve well as preludes.
    I'm not kidding that I bawled my way through the last 20% of this fic. It's the most exquisite fic I could have asked for from this fandom since No Such Liberty, to the point that I'm afraid I won't be able ti write the rec for it that I want, as I was just immediately sucked into this story and could not stop reading it once I'd begun. The characterization and writing are utterly stunning for how they hit every single note that I could have asked for, there was literally nothing else I could ask for from a family feels fic! This fic showed the relationship dynamics between the four main family members all brilliantly, it was satisfying if you're looking for a Frigga & Loki story, it was satisfying if you're looking for a Thor & Loki story, it was satisfying if you're looking for a Frigga & Thor story, it was satisfying if you're just looking for good Frigga fic in general. It was satisfying for the utterly intense and wrenching way that you believed in Loki right along with Frigga's unwavering support, but you also saw him just as clearly as she did, that he was still fighting a battle of the mind and it had not yet been won.

That is the heart of this fic, the battle that Loki still wages even after being brought to Asgard, to either fall to the poison that invades his mind or fight back from it, to open so many old wounds, to risk believing in something again, to risk hope, or to just finally fall. This fic had my heart the entire time, it was utterly breathtaking how well the author touched on this painful struggle of Loki's, as well as how difficult it was for Frigga and Thor as they struggled to try to help him, as this story was as much about them as it was about Loki. The balance here is brilliant, every scene--every scene--added to the greater whole and had me on the edge of my seat. The brilliant use of details, the world-building with Thanos and the casual bits of technology or magic, further added to the greater whole. The fic never lacked for incredible pacing or the sense that every scene was as fleshed out as it needed to be. I'm really not kidding, either, when I say that this fic gave me everything I could have asked for from a family feels fic that was about Loki being brought to Asgard and his family refusing to give up on him, with Frigga leading the charge.

The Frigga & Loki aspect is what I picked the fic up for, and certainly her characterization is utterly stunning here, but I found that the Thor & Loki scenes were just as much of a punch to the feelings as the Frigga & Loki scenes. The characterization of him here is spot on, that this is the Thor I know, that balance between utter love and utter anger, that he holds himself back from acting only because he hasn't yet figured out which way to act, but you still feel the weight of his character. You feel the weight of them all, really. And, oh, when Thor finally unravels one mystery about Loki, the moment that things first turned so wrong for them all, the brilliant way the author unfolded the scene had me so wound up that I nearly had to stop reading for awhile, just to work through the feelings it gave me. And tears. So many tears. The ending is just pure tears on my faaaace, especially once Odin enters the picture fully. If you're looking for good Frigga & Loki fic, want more good Thor & Loki fic, or just want post-Avengers "Asgard tries to help Loki" fic, this one is an absolute-must read.

Tales of the Storm: Ephemeral by Lizardbeth, loki + thor + frigga + odin, kidfic, animal death, 2.2k
    A hunting accident teaches young Loki about mortality and loss.
    Oh, no, more tears threatening to well up in my eyes after reading this one. It's a short piece, but it's so lovely a look at Loki's childhood and the first time he really experiences the death of something and how this incredibly sensitive child would react to something like that. It's heart-wrenching even as it's incredibly sweet in moments, the scenes between Frigga and Loki especially are just beautifully done, the author choosing to focus on parents and children as the central theme in a perfectly done way. The little touches are so good here, Odin's hand smoothing Loki's hair or Frigga pulling him close, you feel their affection for this child struggling to deal with the concept of death in a culture that doesn't have nearly as much of it as mortals do. The conversation with Frigga about why there's death was the highlight of the fic as well, worth the read for that alone.

Tales of the Storm: Nightmare by Lizardbeth, frigga + loki, ~1k
    Frigga comforts a small Loki.
    This fic can stand alone and it's completely precious. Frigga and her little baby boy, still young enough to carry around after he's had a nightmare! It's a bit heavy-handed with the foreshadowing, but still entirely satisfying and sweet.

You As You Were by cavaleira, frigga & loki + thor, kidfic, 2.5k
    Before Loki became anything else, he was his mother's son.
    After that interview with Tom about how Frigga and Loki were close when he was younger, that she taught him much, confirming a lot of fandom's headcannon, I wanted all the fic in the world about it and cavaleira was delightful enough to us to bless the fandom with this fic. It's a lovely look at a younger Loki who struggles with not being as strong or as powerful as the other kids, especially not as much as Thor, that he doesn't take well to the fighting style of Asgard, so Frigga shows him another way to fight. It's lovely for the interaction between the characters, but also for showing that Frigga is a warrior queen in her own way, she's deadly when she aims to be, and yet never loses her gentless. When she whipped around with the dagger, I really just wanted to fucking cheer! It fits perfectly with the characters and how I view their relationship, it's spot on for these characters and the wonderful mother & son relationship here. Another must read if you're looking for these two!

His Mother's Son by Lise, frigga & loki + thor + odin, 2.3k
    She found Loki curled up in a corner of her garden, his knees pulled to his chest and streaks on his face from tears when he looked up at her. ďIím never going to be like Thor, am I?Ē he said, and started to cry.
    Oh, no. This was beautiful and fragile and it ached for that. Both past and present try so hard and there is so much love here and so it just aches when it all turns back and cracks. Lise does a masterful job of finding the perfect ways to make everything just punch me right in the feelings all over again, especially with Frigga's darling boy and the scene where she finds him again and Thor's loss here is just as painful and then when they're children and just-- oh, no, tears all over my face. Beautifully written and heartbreaking, but in the way that's worthwhile to read anyway.

mother, son, heart by stereobone [ mobile ver. ], frigga & loki + odin + thor, 2k
    Frigga names him. Odinís kindness runs deep, but his forethought does not. He returns from battle with a baby and his right eye missing and no idea what to do with the crying bundle in his arms. Frigga takes the baby from him, cradles him to her chest.
    This is short and bittersweet, a series of quick scenes across Loki and Frigga's lives, to show the slowly unfolding tragedy from a bird's eye view, while keeping the immediacy of each moment very well. Each scene shows a different moment where there's something real and important between these two, how sweet and lovely it is, how good the relationship between mother and son is, even when you know it's not going to be enough. That lurking undercurrent of looming tragedy is always there, no matter how sweet and adorable a scene is, which makes this a bit of a painful read, but still absolutely worth it.

The Queen is Dead; Long Live the Queen by skiesovergideon, frigga & loki + thor, thor 2 spoilers, character death, 3.2k
    Loki grieves for Frigga.
    The amount of pure emotion I felt while reading this was astounding. The author does a brilliant job of capturing the sense of loss and the utter physical feeling of that grief, combining it together with the absolute and utter mess that Loki is. It can be difficult to write a character who has such wild moodswings like Loki does, especially when he's at another extreme of his life, after finding out about Frigga's death, while he's still so unbalanced, but this fic does a lovely job of it. The sheet amount of gut-wrenching hurt and anger and loss and desperation and sorrow that make up Loki here are perfect, it's such an intense read because this is an intense character in an intense moment. Another thing that's difficult to write is the moment of Loki hearing about her death, the immediate aftermath of that, it's one of those scenes that almost can't be shown/written about because it's too easy to go over the top about it or make it less than the imagination conjures. But this fic does is beautifully.

And it doesn't stop there, it takes us through the scene on the skiff with Thor and Jane, the final line of that scene, about Thor and Loki, just made me ache all over again. They're not the heart of this fic, this is a fic about Loki and his mother, but it's important, too, and, oh, it was a powerful line. Then there's the ending. Jesus fuck, I just about cried all over again, it was so... sweet and painful and heart-wrenchingly real grief. I've had real loss in my own life and this is the kind of fic that touches on that, so it's not a read for if you want happier things, but neither is it meant to be a downer. It finds that middle place that works perfectly for me.

Friggason by AliuIce0814, frigga & loki + odin, thor 2 spoilers, character death, 2.7k
    Loki didn't expect this. It turned out better than he expected.
    The fic is a little rough around the edges and the ending sort of doesn't really track for me (why Heimdall knowingly steps aside) as well as the fic touches a little too hard on the evil!Odin thing to make its point about Loki apologia (though, it's hardly to intolerable levels! this is within the realm of possibility for me!), but the scenes between Loki and Frigga were what I wanted, which I totally got emotional over. There's practically a running stream of thoughts and feelings from Loki when he meets his mother in Valhalla again, which is just so Loki in how it shows off how he crumbles when faced with such intense emotion about those he loves. When he speaks with her and she cradles him close, when he dissolves into clinging to her and crying, it should be too over the top about it, but I genuinely got swept up in it, the way the author builds it up really worked for me, so that I had a misting of tears in my eyes by the time she took her son in her arms. It's meant to play on the audience's emotions, but it does so with such solidity that I adored it and totally got emotional over it. It's a lovely read for after the movie.

And All the Vegetables Too by Chiauve, frigga & loki + thor + odin, kid!thor, kid!loki, fluff, 3.1k
    At first, Frigga paid little mind. Afterall, boys grew at different rates. It wasn't until Loki was a good head taller than his elder brother that she began to worry.
    Ah, this was a lovely look at Frigga's view of Loki and the way he grows so quickly. It's half-world building and half just about the sheer feelings this family gives me. There's a lovely solidity to everything here, but my favorite (even more than the bits of humor, which were delightful) was the utter love you could feel between Frigga and Loki. The whole family, of course, but especially those two. ♥

Precious by setoboo, frigga & loki + thor + odin, kid!thor, bb!loki, 1.1k
    Frigga loved him from the moment she saw his emerald eyes. Odin could raise Thor to be king in any manner he wished. She had precious Loki, and she would raise him as a treasure.
    This fic is a bit rough around the edges and lacks subtlety, it tries too hard to divide the family up, but it's Frigga doting on Loki!! It's an overivew sort of fic, so the moments are all brief, but there's a lot of Frigga carting around her precious baby, etc., and, wow, did that get me in exactly the way the author intended. I really had a lot of feelings in the way this fic was designed to give me, so I really enjoyed it a lot!

The Crownless King by Margo_Kim, frigga & loki + other asgardians, 3k
    Frigga and Loki's relationship in five scenes, from the very beginning to days before the tipping point.
    This one is difficult to explain why it has such an impact, why I felt Frigga's role so deeply, as she raised and guided a child who grew up in troubled circumstances. How her actions and what she wanted for Loki made utter sense to me here, how I could relate to a situation where you're not simply raising a child, but trying to guide them through future difficult situations. But it's also a beautiful look at her feelings about her son and the creeping bitterness in him that has deep roots indeed. This is complicated and messy and painful and so good, in the way that it makes me love both Frigga and Loki all the more after having read it. Because she truly thought she was doing the best thing for him and I can easily see myself making her same decisions in those circumstances, not having the benefit of hindsight. This was a lovely piece!

The Changeling by gth694e, frigga & thor & loki + other asgardians, child death, postpartum depression, child abandonment issues, happy ending, 9.1k
    After the losing her son during childbirth, Frigga cannot find room in her heart for the frost giant babe that Odin has brought home from the war.
    There are sometimes fics that are just... completely not your view of the characters, but are so intriguing all the same that you can't help getting sucked in. I don't mean this as a backhanded compliment, but as an explanation for why I kept reading and why I would consider urging others to continue reading what can be a very painful and difficult fic at times. The writing for this is lovely but painful, especially because of how little love Frigga has for the baby we know and yet I can't entirely blame her for it, given that this is a fic about postpartum depression and how deeply she feels the loss of the child she just gave birth to. It's complicated and messy, in exactly the way it's meant to be.

Frigga and Thor's relationship is another selling point for me here, because it's almost never explored, so her love for him here is wonderful and kid Thor is absolute perfection. His affection for Loki is wonderful and I was heartened by the end of the fic, which is good and positive, a genuine happy ending despite my fears that it wouldn't end well. I wish there had been a bit more of the coming to love Loki for himself stuff, but that was not the point of this fic. And even if it's not my view of the characters' relationships, it's a fic that held my interest the whole way, which says a lot. Plus, it's worth reading just for kid Thor who is just this ball of good will and energy and such big feelings for one who has yet to grow into them, but so good natured even as a young child.

Family Matters by anonymous, thor/loki + frigga & loki + other marvel characters, arranged marriage, divergent timeline, 10k wip
    After the movie Loki is retrieved, but Odin declares he will either submit to his conditions or be exiled as mortal. The conditions are that Loki must marry Thor and bear his children. Thor agrees, not wanting to lose his brother, as does Loki, eventually, deep down wanting nothing more than the love and acceptance of his family (though he doesnít believe heíll ever get it). Thor is not told of Lokiís heritage or why he can bear children and assumes it to be something to do with his sorcery.
    Okay, so, now this fic. I'll warn ahead of time that it's a WIP fic, it ends on a hell of a cliffhanger, and the last part was posted a year ago, so it's almost assuredly abandoned. All that said, I went into this fic knowing that and still enjoyed what was here anyway because, oh, it's so well written and it's one of my favorite things ever in this fandom--Thor and Loki get married and will eventually end up having a kid because Loki's Jotun--and it deals with those tropes and what that might mean for both of them so well. Loki's shock at the circumstances laid out before him (set post-Thor) is enough that I can buy he was startled out of much of what was happening with him at the end of the movie, but it's not forgotten, it's still lying underneath the surface, and he's so distant to his family and so wound up, so twisted around, and so unable to see the truth, which fits so well with his character. And I do love this fic for dealing with what it means to be someone of Loki's build, especially as compared to Thor, to be the receptive partner in a society like Asgard, what that means about his fear of Thor, what that means for Thor to be feared and how that hurts him as well, I do love this fic for dealing with the two of them forced together into a situation that's not of their choosing and how difficult that is for them, to not understand Odin's reasons for this. But, oh, where this fic really got me was with Frigga, who loves both her sons so much, who knows what it's like to be a woman in Asgard, who knows what it's like to be in that role, and how that colors her interactions with Loki. The way Frigga can get through to Loki in a way that no one else is in quite the position to do, because he isn't angry with her and she openly loves him so dearly, it's one of my favorite things in fandom and this author does a gorgeous job of it. I mean, yeah, sure, I read this for the Thor/Loki and the Loki Feels, but, oh, the Frigga and Loki scenes probably wound up being my favorites, they were so gorgeously done.

One to Be Trusted by samalander, thor & loki + odin & loki + frigga & loki + sif, mental instability, 5.9k
    After he lost the battle in Midgard, Loki was taken home in chains. And if the Aesir couldn't heal him with magic, then they would do it with time.
    I read this fic last night and fully intended to settle in for a bit more reading after it, but then I just... couldn't. I couldn't read more after this fic because it emotionally floored me so hard that I wouldn't have been able to concentrate on anything else, not after the thorough emotional wringer I'd just been put through. It is a difficult fic to read if you're sensitive to the Loki feels thing, but I wouldn't say this is a tragic fic, even if it's not all sunshine and roses. But, if I had my way, this is actually quite possibly my ideal (actually possible) scenario for how Loki's return to Asgard would go. It is beautifully written and focuses on Loki's interaction with these four characters, it captures all that rage and hurt he has that are just absolutely storming inside him, and slowly wades through all of that to begin to bring Loki back around.

About halfway through this fic, I got a misting of tears in my eyes that would not leave me alone for the rest of the ride, not when Loki's family loves him so much but they understand him so little. Not when the conversation with Odin was fucking exquisite in both characterization and wordplay and just what Odin had meant and planned for with Loki. It's a combination of emotionally devestating (that I would say is ultimately in a good way) and a brilliant, brilliant look at the characters that left me with that breathless feeling I get over fic sometimes, making this one of my favorites in fandom pretty much instantly. Even the ending was brilliant--because, how do you bring a character like Loki back to himself in just under 6k? You find something somewhere in the middle like this fic so deftly does.

The Threads Fate by Paraph, frigga & odin & loki, baby!loki, ~1k
    When Odin returns from Jotunheim with a familiar form bundled in his arms, Frigga knows their fate has been forever changed.
    Oh, I meant to be done reading for the night, really. But, well, just one more fic... it's not quite 500 words... that'll only take a minute... and it's a small scene, just a moment when Odin has come back from Jotunheim with a baby and first places him in Frigga's arms, but it doesn't need to be more. It's beautiful and full of so many emotions, for how she instantly falls in love with this sleeping baby and you know this won't be easy, but it's something like fate that instantly binds all of them. It's a touch bittersweet (mostly for how we know how things turn out) but also beautiful and sweet. My need for family feels tonight has been sated.

loki's mom (has got it going on) by artyartie, tony & loki & frigga & thor + other marvel characters, mild canon pairings, humor, 2.1k
    "You're what, two thousand, three thousand years old? Because you don't look it at all. You are one blazing hot mama." Tony Stark might not have much common sense, but he knows an amazing woman when he sees one. Too bad Frigga's sons don't quite see it that way.
    If you don't laugh while reading this, I don't know how to help you. It's fun and pure delight PLUS happy futurefic with Tony and Loki arguing, Loki being overprotective of his mom, and cute Tony/Pepper. So much enjoy! ♥ And there's actually some pretty great Frigga characterization mixed in here as well, so I'd recommend it for that as well. But mostly it's just light-hearted humor with characters who are dicks to each other in that way that makes you love them more plus Frigga being awesome. All I want out of life sometimes, tbh.

Hail of Shadows by Lizardbeth, thor & loki + frigga & loki + thanos + malekith + other marvel characters, torture/loki whump, plotfic, redemption fic, 64.5k
    Outside the boundaries of the Nine Realms, beyond the protective embrace of the World Serpent, waits a figure of nightmare and shadow, who leaves only death in his wake: Thanos the Eternal. Even as Loki vows revenge, dark forces are moving. Frigga knows only her family united will withstand the coming storm, even as the fates seem determined to rip them apart.
    This fic is part of a series that should be read in order. Some of the fics are shorter (and more skippable), but at least The Poison Rain needs to be read before this one.
    I am honestly not sure how to write a rec for this fic, because it's just so massive and there are so many things I wish to discuss about it and I fear writing a terrible rec for it--or, at the very least, that so much happened in this fic that, by the time I got to the ending, the beginning seems like a lifetime ago. One of the best things about this fic is that the author has a great style, it's very easy to read and the prose is so smooth and well-paced that I slide right into the story, it never drags or feels bloated or too sparse or glossed over, all while feeling very dense, that shit happens in every chapter. I do have two caveats, though--one, this is the middle story of a series, so there's still so much left to and this fic does end in the middle of the greater story, even if it's a natural ending point for this fic. Two, occasionally this fic slips a bit too far towards making Loki the center of the universe, both in terms of plot and the characters all revolving around him and in the way he's the one doing stuff all the time. Otherwise, this story is stunning and an incredible read.

So much happens! Thanos is properly terrifying! A clever and interesting take on Sigyn! Thor's determination! Frigga's gentless but core of steel! Things are complicated on all sides, so many shades of gray! The use of the Jotnar! The world-building! In Asgard and Jotunheim and Svartalfheim! The span of four separate worlds! The gorgeous writing! I felt at times that I was practically gorging myself on this fic because it's so solidly written and plotted and structured, that it feels professional level for how satisfying the balance of plot and characterization was. This is one of thsoe series that I would recommend to those hungry for plot in this fandom, who want Loki redemption, but that it won't come easily, that it has to be earned.

It is Loki-centric (I'm hoping there will be more Thor in the squel, since it seems set up for that and, when Thor is on the page, he feels very solidly right to me), and there's also some Loki whump for those who enjoy that. I loved the development and twists on the Loki and Sigyn relationship, though, it's very minor and not at all the point, so I'm not listing it, as it's only sort of implied, they have so much other shit going on at the time. This was a great read and I desperately want more people to talk about the series with (as well as the previous fic, which should totally be read!) and the next fic in the series, ahhhh. This is a fandom classic for me already and I love how it does the work of dealing with Thanos as a truly terrifying threat and how Loki takes these small steps forward again and yet it never lets go of his rage or the bad shit that happens to him because of the bad shit these circumstances are.

I love this fic because it really understands Loki, it doesn't excuse the absolutely shitty things he's still responsible for, even when some of it was Thanos influencing him, that it never forgets that Loki is broken down to his foundation and that kind of repair will take time and never heal back the way it was, but that healing is possible. It shows the people around him being loving and supportive because they truly see Loki, and, holy shit, Frigga storming over to Svartalfheim because no way is she leaving her baby boy behind again, that was so goddamned satisfying, even as it's heartbreaking. The plotting and pacing of this fic are just incredibly solid and, oh, this is actually a terribly generic rec for a fic that I desperately, desperately want more people to read and that I wish I could give back more considering how many feelings and how much satisfaction it gave me. JUST GO READ IT OKAY.

All the Courage You Have Left by Takada Saiko, frigga & loki, kid loki, pre-movies, 1.2k
    A young Loki receives a gift from Frigga that he will carry with him all of his days.
    There's one caveat I have, that the other Asgardians are a little too mean to kid Loki, but other than that, this was wonderful! Frigga and her darling little boy who takes immediately to daggers and throwing kinves in a way he never did with swords, is wonderful! There is some lovely background detail worked in with where the daggers came from and hints of Frigga's past and I loved all of it. ♥

Ailing by Ariyana, frigga & loki, baby!loki, fluff, 1.1k
    Some times even a Queen has trouble figuring out what a fussy baby needs or wants.
    This fic started out a bit rough, but I was intrigued by the promise of Frigga and baby Loki cuteness, so I kept reading, and it smoothed out quickly and, oh, this was full of SO MANY FEELS. The author strikes that perfect balance of something that's so sweet and darling, but with just enough weight to not be too cutesy for me. Instead, it's all about this family who have just brought in this new addition and who's fussy and they don't know why, until they figure it out, and it's just. It's happy and touching and good and all about the warm and fuzzy family feelings. SO GOOD FOR ME.

Integrals and Limits by FelicityGS, frigga & loki + other asgardians, 1.5k
    If asked, Frigga will say she loves both of her sons equally. It is important, as the wife of a very well-known businessman, to appear as people expect, to know when to smile, when to frown, when to politely demur. Grace is not something people are often born with; it is learned. Frigga was born with grace.
    Note: This is part two of a series that would help to be read in order. The first four stories can be read in just about any order, though.
    Ahhh, more math porn, yes, good. But also! This story is entirely set from Frigga's point of view and it's all about the family feels and you have no idea how much that does for me--Frigga and being all about both her sons, but especially Loki even though she loves both dearly? Yes, yes, give me that. Especially with such a graceful narrative that fits her character, the subtle hints of something more going on here (that we won't know about until later), hints that this might not be as entirely AU as it first seems. This is beautifully characterized, for everyone in it (focusing on Frigga, Thor, and Loki, with some bits of Odin in it) and I wish I could write a better rec because Frigga Feels fic deserves it. Because Frigga loving her sweet, darling son makes my heart ache, too. And I think this might yet be my favorite of the entire series so far.

I Remember by Gallifreyja, thor & loki + odin/frigga, baby!loki, kid!thor, fluff, 1k
    It was still a crystal clear memory, the day Loki became her son.
    This fic does have the bouncing pov problem and could have been tightened up a little, but I have to admire that it's hard for me to really complain too hard when it's going back and forth between Odin and Frigga's points of view about this new baby that Odin's brought into their lives and they're wary about how this will all go... except of course they fall in love with the baby all too quickly. And then Frigga introduces the baby to Thor, where both Thor and the baby instantly take to each other and it's just. It's wonderful because it's so full of family feels and happiness that, ahhhh, it's wonderful to read.

Now Forget and be Content by spaceleviathan, odin & frigga & loki, mentions of suicide, 2.4k
    She knew she had to be the strong one for Thor, because her husband was engaged enough in convincing himself to believe that he hadnít just killed their son.
    I picked this fic up on a whim tonight--well, I would have put it in my to-read pile either way, but I decided to read it immediately since it was short and I was curious how a fic immediate-post Bifrost scene would go, especially since it promised to be about Frigga and her feelings for her sons. And, oh, while the writing was trying a little too hard at times and a bit awkward, it just absolutely nailed the most important part--the part where I had tears in my eyes because of this family's utter grief at the loss of their own. Thor blaming himself and devastated at the loss of his brother. Odin's heavy heart and guilt that he couldn't stop this. Frigga's utter loss and grace under pressure as she comforts one and tries not to hate the other, for not finding the right words to save Loki.

I love this fic because it's so much of what I saw with these characters and imagined for them, that Frigga would be so angry at the words Odin chose to say to Loki when he was so fragile, that she may never forgive him for it. At the same time, this Odin isn't without regret, he obviously does regret it deeply, but he still soldiers on and is difficult to read entirely. And Frigga is the Queen of Asgard, she must carry on as well, she has her duty and only a short time to herself to be breakable as well. It's such a painful read, but one I wanted because, oh, Loki was so very loved, he was theirs and his mother is destroyed by this loss.

I wanted to read this because it put the tears in my eyes that I hoped it would (but I am very weak to this dynamic) and gave me all the family feels I could ask for, in a way that's messy and complicated and is only tolerable to me because we readers know that Loki's not actually dead.

Concealment and Betrayal by khilari, loki + frigga + other asgardians, some gore, 7k
    Loki refuses to believe he really saw his hand turn blue and never confronts Odin in the vault. But the lies Loki tells himself take their toll on his body and when he tries to ignore the illness this causes he finds himself in serious trouble.
    I love stories that take a different path re: Loki's finding out his true parentage in the Thor movie, especially when they start unfolding the events so differently! Instead of poking and prodding at what happened on Jotunheim, Loki goes into denial about it, but that causes a different set of problems. The fic deals with Loki's self-esteem issues and I'd have liked Sif+W3 to have been a little less antagonistic towards Loki, but the fic also has them being entirely human by the end, and it makes a bit of a point of how Loki does lie and hide things and antagonize people and keep them at arm's length and then resent them for it. The lovely thing about the fic is that it doesn't have to explicitly state all this, you just pick up on it when you really stop to consider Loki's character. Of course he's more sympathetic here, he's still home and he's not dealing with the extra pressure of ruling when he's not fit for it and we're inside his head.

It's a bit of Loki whump fic, there's definitely a bit of gore here in the sickness that's eating away at him, but the author uses it to deliver the comfort that I wanted to see, focusing especially on Frigga's relationship with her son. And, oh, that conversation goes so much differently because Loki is put into a situation where lying will hurt him (and, boy, was that delicious for me) and because she doesn't have an Odinsleep to fall into when it's a tough conversation. I love the reasoning for Loki's sickness, the bit of world building that does and how it's similar to my own views of his character. I love that it addressed the guard who died and Loki's responsibilities while Thor was gone, I love that this fic deals with consequences for Loki's actions before things spiral too terribly out of control. I especially love how Frigga deals with Loki's resentment towards Thor always being the golden son of Asgard that everyone loves. Frigga's pretty amazing in this fic and I had a ton of feelings with every scene she was in with her darling son.

Paper Wings by Morbid_Mandalyn, frigga & loki + other avengers, 2k
    Loki and Frigga struggle with themselves to communicate with each other across realms.
    This is short and I'll warn that the writing is stiff, a lot of it is very tell-rather-than-show, more summary than fic, but it's also all about the difficult relationships Loki has with his family, centering on the one with his mother. And, oh, I pretty much want to read all the Loki & Frigga fic there is on the internet and this fic shows why that is--even when Loki has trouble allowing himself to reconnect with those that love him (which is shown by how awkward and distant his relationship with Thor has become), his mother is patient and caring and lets Loki figure out his own way of reaching back to her. I love how much Frigga will always love her darling boy, I love how you can see why she's the first person Loki slowly starts to reach out to here, and the ending of this was really sweet and thoughtful. It totally gave me the Frigga feels I was looking for.

Loki's 'mischief' was always out of control. Odin doesn't care by burning_nova, odin & frigga & loki & thor, humor, crack, ~1k
    There have been a lot of stories where Odin is quick to crack down on Loki's actions with gruesome torture punishments, but what if Odin had always been extremely indulgent of Loki's bullshit?
    I'm really, really not kidding about how I would read so many fics just like this because I am 100% serious that I don't care if it's against the tone of the movies or whatever, I would absolutely choose this route of Odin and Frigga's reactions to Loki's actions. Because doting on Loki as their precious darling and the hilarity of Thor's WTF WTF WTF reaction and Loki being an absolutely spoiled rotten little shit is my favorite. Faaaaaavoriiiiiiiite. And this one happily embraces the cracky nature and just runs with it, where Odin and Frigga really don't give a fuck what anyone thinks, they do what they want to do. Which is coo over their precious baby. Yes. Yes, good.

Great Ruins of an Unremembered Past by Lise, loki + thor + frigga + thanos, mildly nsfw for violent imagery, violent imagery + gore/torture, 8k
    There are a lot of things Loki would like to avoid. Imprisonment for life is one. Sleep is another. And under that, a whole lot of others.
    Well. So, this fic made me cry by the end of it. It's a brutal exploration of Loki's pain and issues and self-hatred and fears, tackling the kind of things that usually make me run screaming from a fic, done in such a way that I just could not look away from them and the author truly doing justice to just how horrifying a place Loki's mind is. Lise is not kidding when she says that Loki's a goddamned mess, but she writes him in such a way that it's utterly believable that he's not entirely evil and not entirely good, that he does monsterous things and continues to spit poison at everyone but also it's so very easy to have sympathy for him, that perfect balance that punches me straight in the feelings. The way she writes him interacting with Thor and Frigga especially are just breathtaking, the emotional connection he has with them (and I, in turn, have with these characters) punching me in the feelings so hard that, by the end of the fic, everything was built up to the final scenes just masterfully and put tears in my eyes as well. This is a brutal read, but that's what you're going to get when you're in Loki's mind, post-Avengers, and this absolutely delivers.

Team is a four-letter word by LulaMadison, thor & loki + tony & loki + frigga & loki + avengers, fluff, avenger!loki, 30k
    After some serious therapy, Loki has now been a member of the Avengers for 2 years, but when an attack by Doom leaves him gravely ill, his team mates have to fight to save his life.
    This is the fourth fic in a series, which can stand on its own (all you need to know is that Loki is calmer now and is an Avenger), but I think works better when read after the others, so you get a better understanding of the emotional progress.
    I started reading this fic before it was finished being posted and I had to genuinely consider whether or not to wait--the author updates quickly once a story is being posted, but also I really got sucked into the fic and didn't want to wait another day or two, when I was full of a lot of feelings about it! Thankfully, I didn't have to choose because the final part was posted tonight and, naturally, I snatched it up to read immediately. I wish I could do a better rec for this fic, because it's pretty much exactly what I wanted out of this fandom (amazing team dynamics with a focus on Loki's character, who is an Avenger now, Loki whump with the rest of the team caring about him, while he's still as prickly as ever, then getting into his issues and making me have all the feels, then more family feels, and then action scenes and, wham, excellent ending!) and I read all ~30k words of this practically like it was nothing because I just could not put it down. The author does an amazing job at writing prose that pulls you into the story and is so solid and so smoothly written that you hardly even feel the passage of time. Oh, what I wouldn't give for more authors like this in the fandom!

I think this fic is the strongest yet of the series, but I still still grant that this Loki is not going to be for everyone, that this is set two years after Loki has become an Avenger, so this is a happier, more emotionally healthy Loki, this is a Loki who has become part of the family that the Avengers have chosen for themselves, but I am absolutely over the moon for that here, with this author. It's helped greatly by how Loki is kind of a dick (the scene where Thor encourages Loki's dickery and finds it hilarious? quite possibly my favorite thing because, yes, yes, yes, Thor finds Loki hilarious!) and how he's still prickly about Thor's affection for him and has an insult-you-to-show-I-like-you attitude with both Thor and Tony, which, you know, give me that for always. This fic is also amazing because it's all about Loki's magic being turned on him, so he's in incredible pain for most of the fic, which he bears up under to the point where it's almost heartbreaking, because you quietly realize just how much practice he's had at bearing up under pressure and pain in his life. It's amazing because he refuses to be thought of as weak, because he very clearly isn't weak, the narrative is direct about that, even when he can hardly move or when he's collapsing and Thor has to be there to catch him and help him.

And, oh, the Thor&Loki aspect isn't always at the forefront of the fic, but it's woven into the heart of it, from when Loki lets Thor help him in ways he won't let others, when he accepts Thor's presence near him as he's in great pain, when he seeks his brother out when he can't sleep, all of that did my heart so much good. The bickering relationship he has with Tony is wonderful as well! The author has a gift for dialogue for these three characters especially, as well as a gift for showing how much pain Loki is in here the entire time without making it seem repetitive, which is no easy feat. Of course, if all that weren't enough (and it would have been!) the fic also has an amazing Frigga&Loki dynamic that did my heart so much good because, for all the pain and darkness and heartache they've all been through, Loki and his family genuinely do love each other, he loves them and they love him, and Frigga with the Avengers is every kind of amazing that it needed to be.

For all that I started this series, kind of expecting something that was just going to be pure fluff, I actually got a whole hell of a lot more than that. I got excellent dialogue, team family dynamics, an excellent group dynamic (both in terms of the Avengers and in the author knowing how to write multiple characters at once and their different dynamics with each other), a great Loki focus, and a whole lot of feelings. This is why sometimes genfic winds up being my favorite, because it's not distracted with kissing or sex to give an emotional climax (not that there's anything wrong with those, I love reading about relationships!), but instead about team, family, and action. All the things I read comics for in the first place.

Now Forget and be Content by spaceleviathan, odin & frigga & thor & loki, mentions of suicide, 2.4k
    She knew she had to be the strong one for Thor, because her husband was engaged enough in convincing himself to believe that he hadnít just killed their son.
    I picked this fic up on a whim tonight--well, I would have put it in my to-read pile either way, but I decided to read it immediately since it was short and I was curious how a fic immediate-post Bifrost scene would go, especially since it promised to be about Frigga and her feelings for her sons. And, oh, while the writing was trying a little too hard at times and a bit awkward, it just absolutely nailed the most important part--the part where I had tears in my eyes because of this family's utter grief at the loss of their own. Thor blaming himself and devastated at the loss of his brother. Odin's heavy heart and guilt that he couldn't stop this. Frigga's utter loss and grace under pressure as she comforts one and tries not to hate the other, for not finding the right words to save Loki.

I love this fic because it's so much of what I saw with these characters and imagined for them, that Frigga would be so angry at the words Odin chose to say to Loki when he was so fragile, that she may never forgive him for it. At the same time, this Odin isn't without regret, he obviously does regret it deeply, but he still soldiers on and is difficult to read entirely. And Frigga is the Queen of Asgard, she must carry on as well, she has her duty and only a short time to herself to be breakable as well. It's such a painful read, but one I wanted because, oh, Loki was so very loved, he was theirs and his mother is destroyed by this loss.

I wanted to read this because it put the tears in my eyes that I hoped it would (but I am very weak to this dynamic) and gave me all the family feels I could ask for, in a way that's messy and complicated and is only tolerable to me because we readers know that Loki's not actually dead.

I Remember by Gallifreyja, thor & loki + odin/frigga, baby!loki, kid!thor, fluff, 1k
    It was still a crystal clear memory, the day Loki became her son.
    This fic does have the bouncing pov problem and could have been tightened up a little, but I have to admire that it's hard for me to really complain too hard when it's going back and forth between Odin and Frigga's points of view about this new baby that Odin's brought into their lives and they're wary about how this will all go... except of course they fall in love with the baby all too quickly. And then Frigga introduces the baby to Thor, where both Thor and the baby instantly take to each other and it's just. It's wonderful because it's so full of family feels and happiness that, ahhhh, it's wonderful to read.

The Spaces Between by Lise, thor & loki & frigga, 10.8k
    There's a theory that goes that there's a universe created for every possible choice you make in life. Loki's made a lot of choices. He could make a lot more. Or, the one where Loki wanders through AUs of his life and it starts fucking with his head.

    I've had my ups and downs with the fandom of late, but I suppose I always knew that there was going to be that one fic that came along that would break me down and have me come crawling back, because I loved it enough and had enough feelings about it that I wouldn't be able to contain them. And, well, here I am. It's not surprising that it's one by Lise, who is an author I will read pretty much absolutely anything for, but a story where Loki travels through various Divergent Timelines, different worlds where a decision altered the course of his life in one way or the other? Oh, hell, yes, give me that right now.

And this is brilliantly written, both for the different worlds giving me all these feelings--both happy and sad, heartbreaking and hopeful, sweet and bittersweet and just bitter in all the right moments--for being a fantastic concept and using it as a platform to showcase Loki looking at his life choices and what he really wants, forcing him to face up to some truths because of what he sees. The author is one of those that writes both characters brilliantly, she knows how to write a viciously angry and resolute Loki, but also knows how to write Thor who is... as unmoveable as a mountain, even as he's unsure of what to do or say, how to get through to Loki. A large part of why this was the fic that finally broke me is because of Thor, the way this author writes him and how exquisitely in character he is here.

But I also can't lie, the tie between these characters and all the different worlds that always seem to center on Loki's relationship with Thor, that was exactly what I wanted. This may not be an explicitly romantic relationship, but it's very easy to see it as pre-slash in so many moments, especially when Loki burns with jealousy over Thor's relationships with other people. That's used with such a deft and subtle hand that it fits the characters at this point in time perfectly. Even the ending, as difficult as it is in some ways (ways that it's meant to be), is perfect because it's not meant to be a complete resolution, instead focusing on getting Loki to take the first step, which is where I would want it to end anyway.

Everything about this fic was brilliantly written, I couldn't tear myself away from it until I was done reading, and, oh, I definitely got a little misty-eyed in all the right places. If I could read nothing but Lise's fic in this fandom, I think I would be satisfied forever--even if sometimes I would like to pin her down and make her write fluff once in awhile. Just sometimes, though. Because this is the kind of punch to the feelings that makes me feel like there's a point to it.

Ailing by Ariyana, frigga & loki, baby!loki, fluff, 1.1k
    Some times even a Queen has trouble figuring out what a fussy baby needs or wants.
    This fic started out a bit rough, but I was intrigued by the promise of Frigga and baby Loki cuteness, so I kept reading, and it smoothed out quickly and, oh, this was full of SO MANY FEELS. The author strikes that perfect balance of something that's so sweet and darling, but with just enough weight to not be too cutesy for me. Instead, it's all about this family who have just brought in this new addition and who's fussy and they don't know why, until they figure it out, and it's just. It's happy and touching and good and all about the warm and fuzzy family feelings. SO GOOD FOR ME.

Tales of the Storm: Nightmare by Lizardbeth, frigga + loki, ~1k
    Frigga comforts a small Loki.
    This fic can stand alone and it's completely precious. Frigga and her little baby boy, still young enough to carry around after he's had a nightmare! It's a bit heavy-handed with the foreshadowing, but still entirely satisfying and sweet.

Integrals and Limits by FelicityGS, frigga & loki + other asgardians, 1.5k
    If asked, Frigga will say she loves both of her sons equally. It is important, as the wife of a very well-known businessman, to appear as people expect, to know when to smile, when to frown, when to politely demur. Grace is not something people are often born with; it is learned. Frigga was born with grace.
    Note: This is part two of a series that would help to be read in order. The first four stories can be read in just about any order, though.
    Ahhh, more math porn, yes, good. But also! This story is entirely set from Frigga's point of view and it's all about the family feels and you have no idea how much that does for me--Frigga and being all about both her sons, but especially Loki even though she loves both dearly? Yes, yes, give me that. Especially with such a graceful narrative that fits her character, the subtle hints of something more going on here (that we won't know about until later), hints that this might not be as entirely AU as it first seems. This is beautifully characterized, for everyone in it (focusing on Frigga, Thor, and Loki, with some bits of Odin in it) and I wish I could write a better rec because Frigga Feels fic deserves it. Because Frigga loving her sweet, darling son makes my heart ache, too. And I think this might yet be my favorite of the entire series so far.

Shall We Keep Him? by ItsMadness, odin/frigga + loki, baby!loki, 1.3k
    Odin finds an infant on JŲtunheim, and decides to keep him.
    This is short, but adds context to the day Odin rescued Loki from Jotunheim and works well as a set-up for future stories. it also has a neat bit of detail on baby!Loki's powers and so it's a fun little read to add to a collection when you're looking for more fic set in this time period.

A Boy's Best Friend... by LulaMadison, frigga & loki + steve/loki + other marvel characters, humor, crack, 14k
    Frigga followed Odin out onto the bridge, and when she sees Loki let go of Gungnir promptly dives after him, because that's her baby. Now it's kinda hard to take over a realm when your mother is tagging along and baking pies...
    It was about a page into this fic, when Frigga was explaining about how Loki came to them and how their family worked and then got to the part about Balder that I just kind of lost it, because it was so beautifully timed and hilarious. This is definitely a cracky fic, but it's the kind that gleefully embraces its premise (Loki falls, Frigga dives after him, because he's her precious darling boy, and she helps him take over Midgard, encouraging him to blossom) and has an absolute blast doing so! I laughed so many times while reading this and there was at least one point where I was actually crying a little, trying to hold back my cackling. The author does a beautiful job of all these amazing little moments and details, the kind that really make crackfic good, especially when Loki interacts with any of the Avengers or when he makes "friends" with other villains or when he picks a country to take over.

And, oh, sure, I initially picked it up because I wanted more Steve/Loki fic and it's a lot of fun for that, too! They're precious darlings and Tony having fun at Steve's expense is pretty hilarious and Frigga playing matchmaker is amazing. It's heart-warming and completely free of angst, this is one of those fics that you read when you want something that's completely loopy and silly, when you just want fluff and lolz. But I think maybe my favorite part of this was Frigga and Loki's interaction, because I so dearly love their relationship and I don't get enough of it in fandom. Having a fic that's about 14k words long, which has Frigga and Loki at its heart (well, and Steve and Loki, too), especially one that was all about paying attention to Loki, having Frigga encourage and support him (in a totally batshit way, but that's the delight of this fic--everything is brilliantly batshit) and feed him cookies was amaaaaazing for me. I seriously cannot express how hard I laughed and how hard I just simply loved while reading this fic. It was perfect for me. Frigga should be a badass mom more often. MORE OFTEN.

Precious by setoboo, frigga & loki + other asgardians, kid!loki, 1.1k
    Frigga loved him from the moment she saw his emerald eyes. Odin could raise Thor to be king in any manner he wished. She had precious Loki, and she would raise him as a treasure.
    This fic is a little heartbreaking, but it's also really wonderful, for Frigga and Loki's relationship. I love how she just instantly fell in love with this baby the moment she saw him, how she genuinely loves both her sons, but as Thor has more in common with Odin, so does Loki with Frigga. I love how there's a vague undercurrent of frustration, maybe even anger at the way things are, the way Odin has handled things, so she tucks Loki a little closer to her and teaches him about magic, because this child is hers. And she would raise him to be regal and princely and well-read and loving magic. I love that bond between them being focused on, because I always see Frigga as being so important to Loki's character.

Concealment and Betrayal by khilari, loki + frigga + other asgardians, some gore, 7k
    Loki refuses to believe he really saw his hand turn blue and never confronts Odin in the vault. But the lies Loki tells himself take their toll on his body and when he tries to ignore the illness this causes he finds himself in serious trouble.
    I love stories that take a different path re: Loki's finding out his true parentage in the Thor movie, especially when they start unfolding the events so differently! Instead of poking and prodding at what happened on Jotunheim, Loki goes into denial about it, but that causes a different set of problems. The fic deals with Loki's self-esteem issues and I'd have liked Sif+W3 to have been a little less antagonistic towards Loki, but the fic also has them being entirely human by the end, and it makes a bit of a point of how Loki does lie and hide things and antagonize people and keep them at arm's length and then resent them for it. The lovely thing about the fic is that it doesn't have to explicitly state all this, you just pick up on it when you really stop to consider Loki's character. Of course he's more sympathetic here, he's still home and he's not dealing with the extra pressure of ruling when he's not fit for it and we're inside his head.

It's a bit of Loki whump fic, there's definitely a bit of gore here in the sickness that's eating away at him, but the author uses it to deliver the comfort that I wanted to see, focusing especially on Frigga's relationship with her son. And, oh, that conversation goes so much differently because Loki is put into a situation where lying will hurt him (and, boy, was that delicious for me) and because she doesn't have an Odinsleep to fall into when it's a tough conversation. I love the reasoning for Loki's sickness, the bit of world building that does and how it's similar to my own views of his character. I love that it addressed the guard who died and Loki's responsibilities while Thor was gone, I love that this fic deals with consequences for Loki's actions before things spiral too terribly out of control. I especially love how Frigga deals with Loki's resentment towards Thor always being the golden son of Asgard that everyone loves. Frigga's pretty amazing in this fic and I had a ton of feelings with every scene she was in with her darling son.

Paper Wings by Morbid_Mandalyn, frigga & loki + other avengers, 2k
    Loki and Frigga struggle with themselves to communicate with each other across realms.
    This is short and I'll warn that the writing is stiff, a lot of it is very tell-rather-than-show, more summary than fic, but it's also all about the difficult relationships Loki has with his family, centering on the one with his mother. And, oh, I pretty much want to read all the Loki & Frigga fic there is on the internet and this fic shows why that is--even when Loki has trouble allowing himself to reconnect with those that love him (which is shown by how awkward and distant his relationship with Thor has become), his mother is patient and caring and lets Loki figure out his own way of reaching back to her. I love how much Frigga will always love her darling boy, I love how you can see why she's the first person Loki slowly starts to reach out to here, and the ending of this was really sweet and thoughtful. It totally gave me the Frigga feels I was looking for.

The Queen is Dead; Long Live the Queen by skiesovergideon, frigga & loki + thor, thor 2 spoilers, character death, 3.2k
    Loki grieves for Frigga.
    The amount of pure emotion I felt while reading this was astounding. The author does a brilliant job of capturing the sense of loss and the utter physical feeling of that grief, combining it together with the absolute and utter mess that Loki is. It can be difficult to write a character who has such wild moodswings like Loki does, especially when he's at another extreme of his life, after finding out about Frigga's death, while he's still so unbalanced, but this fic does a lovely job of it. The sheet amount of gut-wrenching hurt and anger and loss and desperation and sorrow that make up Loki here are perfect, it's such an intense read because this is an intense character in an intense moment. Another thing that's difficult to write is the moment of Loki hearing about her death, the immediate aftermath of that, it's one of those scenes that almost can't be shown/written about because it's too easy to go over the top about it or make it less than the imagination conjures. But this fic does is beautifully.

And it doesn't stop there, it takes us through the scene on the skiff with Thor and Jane, the final line of that scene, about Thor and Loki, just made me ache all over again. They're not the heart of this fic, this is a fic about Loki and his mother, but it's important, too, and, oh, it was a powerful line. Then there's the ending. Jesus fuck, I just about cried all over again, it was so... sweet and painful and heart-wrenchingly real grief. I've had real loss in my own life and this is the kind of fic that touches on that, so it's not a read for if you want happier things, but neither is it meant to be a downer. It finds that middle place that works perfectly for me.

Friggason by AliuIce0814, frigga & loki + odin, thor 2 spoilers, character death, 2.7k
    Loki didn't expect this. It turned out better than he expected.
    The fic is a little rough around the edges and the ending sort of doesn't really track for me (why Heimdall knowingly steps aside) as well as the fic touches a little too hard on the evil!Odin thing to make its point about Loki apologia (though, it's hardly to intolerable levels! this is within the realm of possibility for me!), but the scenes between Loki and Frigga were what I wanted, which I totally got emotional over. There's practically a running stream of thoughts and feelings from Loki when he meets his mother in Valhalla again, which is just so Loki in how it shows off how he crumbles when faced with such intense emotion about those he loves. When he speaks with her and she cradles him close, when he dissolves into clinging to her and crying, it should be too over the top about it, but I genuinely got swept up in it, the way the author builds it up really worked for me, so that I had a misting of tears in my eyes by the time she took her son in her arms. It's meant to play on the audience's emotions, but it does so with such solidity that I adored it and totally got emotional over it. It's a lovely read for after the movie.

Tales of the Storm: Nightmare by Lizardbeth, frigga + loki, ~1k
    Frigga comforts a small Loki.
    This fic can stand alone and it's completely precious. Frigga and her little baby boy, still young enough to carry around after he's had a nightmare! It's a bit heavy-handed with the foreshadowing, but still entirely satisfying and sweet.

Understanding the Storm: Prelude by Lizardbeth, frigga & loki + thor + odin, some odin/frigga, 3k
    If a parent shouldn't outlive her own child, how much worse is it when her child should be immortal? On Asgard Frigga mourns until she gets surprising news.
    This is a prelude to the bigger story, but it sets things up well, focusing on Frigga's character and the overarching reactions she has to the loss of Loki and the news of his return, the first time she sees him again when he's brought back to Asgard. This is lovely because it focuses on her feelings and her place in Loki's life and his place in hers, that she truly understands him in a way that few do, both the good and bad parts of him, and her bias is for the good, yet not blind. That she knows he may well be playing a bigger game here, but sees even beyond that, to the potential still in him, is so lovely here. It's a gorgeous start to this series.

Understanding the Storm by Lizardbeth, frigga & loki, 4.2k
    Long ago, she held him in her arms and refused to let him go. She's still holding on, even when it breaks her heart to see what he's become.
    This is where the author really ratchets things up a notch in the careful stepping done with these characters and the arguments they make and the way they see each other. This is the first step towards what I've been pining for in this fandom--Frigga refusing to give up her darling son, no matter how lost in his madness and poison he seems to be. From the moment she held that baby in her arms to the loss of him to the return of the one who stands before her, he has always been her son, and this fic is another prelude, but it already does so much to show the utter steel of this woman, even as it's wielded with such a soft, gentle touch. The conversation is fantastic, how Frigga slow starts to peer behind the words Loki says, to parse through what he's saying, what is truth and what is misdirection and what is a mix of the two. It's a gorgeous fic, for both characters, and I could not love it more.

The Poison Rain by Lizardbeth, frigga & loki, frigga & thor, thor & loki, odin/frigga, 36k
    Frigga and Thor battle Loki to save him from himself. Words are Frigga's weapons and love is her strength, and she will not surrender this fight.
    It would help to have read the first two stories in this series before this one, as they serve well as preludes.
    I'm not kidding that I bawled my way through the last 20% of this fic. It's the most exquisite fic I could have asked for from this fandom since No Such Liberty, to the point that I'm afraid I won't be able ti write the rec for it that I want, as I was just immediately sucked into this story and could not stop reading it once I'd begun. The characterization and writing are utterly stunning for how they hit every single note that I could have asked for, there was literally nothing else I could ask for from a family feels fic! This fic showed the relationship dynamics between the four main family members all brilliantly, it was satisfying if you're looking for a Frigga & Loki story, it was satisfying if you're looking for a Thor & Loki story, it was satisfying if you're looking for a Frigga & Thor story, it was satisfying if you're just looking for good Frigga fic in general. It was satisfying for the utterly intense and wrenching way that you believed in Loki right along with Frigga's unwavering support, but you also saw him just as clearly as she did, that he was still fighting a battle of the mind and it had not yet been won.

That is the heart of this fic, the battle that Loki still wages even after being brought to Asgard, to either fall to the poison that invades his mind or fight back from it, to open so many old wounds, to risk believing in something again, to risk hope, or to just finally fall. This fic had my heart the entire time, it was utterly breathtaking how well the author touched on this painful struggle of Loki's, as well as how difficult it was for Frigga and Thor as they struggled to try to help him, as this story was as much about them as it was about Loki. The balance here is brilliant, every scene--every scene--added to the greater whole and had me on the edge of my seat. The brilliant use of details, the world-building with Thanos and the casual bits of technology or magic, further added to the greater whole. The fic never lacked for incredible pacing or the sense that every scene was as fleshed out as it needed to be. I'm really not kidding, either, when I say that this fic gave me everything I could have asked for from a family feels fic that was about Loki being brought to Asgard and his family refusing to give up on him, with Frigga leading the charge.

The Frigga & Loki aspect is what I picked the fic up for, and certainly her characterization is utterly stunning here, but I found that the Thor & Loki scenes were just as much of a punch to the feelings as the Frigga & Loki scenes. The characterization of him here is spot on, that this is the Thor I know, that balance between utter love and utter anger, that he holds himself back from acting only because he hasn't yet figured out which way to act, but you still feel the weight of his character. You feel the weight of them all, really. And, oh, when Thor finally unravels one mystery about Loki, the moment that things first turned so wrong for them all, the brilliant way the author unfolded the scene had me so wound up that I nearly had to stop reading for awhile, just to work through the feelings it gave me. And tears. So many tears. The ending is just pure tears on my faaaace, especially once Odin enters the picture fully. If you're looking for good Frigga & Loki fic, want more good Thor & Loki fic, or just want post-Avengers "Asgard tries to help Loki" fic, this one is an absolute-must read.

You As You Were by cavaleira, frigga & loki + thor, kidfic, 2.5k
    Before Loki became anything else, he was his mother's son.
    After that interview with Tom about how Frigga and Loki were close when he was younger, that she taught him much, confirming a lot of fandom's headcannon, I wanted all the fic in the world about it and cavaleira was delightful enough to us to bless the fandom with this fic. It's a lovely look at a younger Loki who struggles with not being as strong or as powerful as the other kids, especially not as much as Thor, that he doesn't take well to the fighting style of Asgard, so Frigga shows him another way to fight. It's lovely for the interaction between the characters, but also for showing that Frigga is a warrior queen in her own way, she's deadly when she aims to be, and yet never loses her gentless. When she whipped around with the dagger, I really just wanted to fucking cheer! It fits perfectly with the characters and how I view their relationship, it's spot on for these characters and the wonderful mother & son relationship here. Another must read if you're looking for these two!

His Mother's Son by Lise, frigga & loki + thor + odin, 2.3k
    She found Loki curled up in a corner of her garden, his knees pulled to his chest and streaks on his face from tears when he looked up at her. ďIím never going to be like Thor, am I?Ē he said, and started to cry.
    Oh, no. This was beautiful and fragile and it ached for that. Both past and present try so hard and there is so much love here and so it just aches when it all turns back and cracks. Lise does a masterful job of finding the perfect ways to make everything just punch me right in the feelings all over again, especially with Frigga's darling boy and the scene where she finds him again and Thor's loss here is just as painful and then when they're children and just-- oh, no, tears all over my face. Beautifully written and heartbreaking, but in the way that's worthwhile to read anyway.

mother, son, heart by stereobone [ mobile ver. ], frigga & loki + odin + thor, 2k
    Frigga names him. Odinís kindness runs deep, but his forethought does not. He returns from battle with a baby and his right eye missing and no idea what to do with the crying bundle in his arms. Frigga takes the baby from him, cradles him to her chest.
    This is short and bittersweet, a series of quick scenes across Loki and Frigga's lives, to show the slowly unfolding tragedy from a bird's eye view, while keeping the immediacy of each moment very well. Each scene shows a different moment where there's something real and important between these two, how sweet and lovely it is, how good the relationship between mother and son is, even when you know it's not going to be enough. That lurking undercurrent of looming tragedy is always there, no matter how sweet and adorable a scene is, which makes this a bit of a painful read, but still absolutely worth it.

And All the Vegetables Too by Chiauve, frigga & loki + thor + odin, kid!thor, kid!loki, fluff, 3.1k
    At first, Frigga paid little mind. Afterall, boys grew at different rates. It wasn't until Loki was a good head taller than his elder brother that she began to worry.
    Ah, this was a lovely look at Frigga's view of Loki and the way he grows so quickly. It's half-world building and half just about the sheer feelings this family gives me. There's a lovely solidity to everything here, but my favorite (even more than the bits of humor, which were delightful) was the utter love you could feel between Frigga and Loki. The whole family, of course, but especially those two. ♥

Precious by setoboo, frigga & loki + thor + odin, kid!thor, bb!loki, 1.1k
    Frigga loved him from the moment she saw his emerald eyes. Odin could raise Thor to be king in any manner he wished. She had precious Loki, and she would raise him as a treasure.
    This fic is a bit rough around the edges and lacks subtlety, it tries too hard to divide the family up, but it's Frigga doting on Loki!! It's an overivew sort of fic, so the moments are all brief, but there's a lot of Frigga carting around her precious baby, etc., and, wow, did that get me in exactly the way the author intended. I really had a lot of feelings in the way this fic was designed to give me, so I really enjoyed it a lot!

Ere the World Falls by kaasknot, thor & loki + frigga & loki, berserker!thor, role reversal au, 5.9k
    "The sonic boom ripped through the sky over Asgardís capital, rattling windows in their casements and scaring clouds of pigeons into the air. It overlapped with a deafening crack, and the combined reverberations, enough to set the dust of the streets shivering into the air, vibrated through Lokiís chest. He frowned, looking up from the doll-like mask of the SvartŠlfar corpse he was examining. He knew that sound. Catching the eye of the einheri captain beside him, he tilted his head in silent command. 'It seems my brother has come home,' he said. 'We should give him a proper welcome.'Ē
    It probably helps to have read Id Est Furor before this fic, for all that this is a prequel to that one, but you can read them separately. And, oh, this fic is gorgeous, it is everything I have wanted out of berserker!Thor, which is a blend of dark!Thor and yet... while the spirit is not the same, there are elements of how canon!Thor could have almost gone down this path. It's difficult to explain, that this isn't a Divergent Timeline AU, but neither is it wholly divorced from canon. Whatever that line it manages to walk, it really worked for me super hard. It completely satisfies the itch I had (and more!) for further stories in this universe and one of the things that it really nails is that Loki is still Loki here, that he's on the path of good, but he's still favoring cunning over supposed honor, he's still holding onto resentments just a little too long. As well as Thor is gloriously terrifying here and the writing for the little details and the world-building are stunning here. This is one of the best fics I've read for Asgard in the movies, how it captures the feel of their magic and technology, along with gorgeous Loki characterization and emotionaly satisfaction of his interactions with both Frigga and Thor. This is absolutely brilliant and I would read 100k of this easily.

untitled by pro-antagonist [ mobile ver. ], frigga & loki, set during thor 2, 1.9k
    It was a slow awakening, like daylight warming the horizon, coaxing it from gentle purple to soft, radiant gold.
    This was a fascinating look at Loki's survival on Svartalfheim and what he would do next and touching on the why of it all. It pulled together several themes, of those from the movies and of larger fate-related ones, and got at Loki's rage and bitterness and wounded heart. That he can be so dagger-sharp, so truly dangerous, and yet like a broken-hearted child at the same time is gorgeously shown by the author here! I found it fascinating for the relation to the movie's plot, but even more so as a Loki character piece!

Frigga's Garden by Rynfinity, frigga & loki, post-thor 2, 1.2k
    He is deep in concentration when he feels it: cool fingers brushing his cheek and settling lightly atop his shoulder.
    Apparently, I'm in the mood for angsty today and this one is all about the Loki and Frigga feels, all about how much Loki really and truly does love her and just how deeply those feelings in him go. This is a bittersweet fic at best, but sometimes you just want to revel in these things, ahhhh.

Divergence by DictionaryWrites, loki & frigga, genderfluid!loki, pre-movies, 1.4k
    Frigga and Loki come to talk late at night, when she discovers him awake in the library. The conversation is not as comfortable as Frigga would like, but it is honest, at least.
    I am very glad I stumbled over this fic tonight, as I am a tremendous fan of exploring Loki as genderqueer, even when it's only lightly touched on in this short piece. It's a softer Loki, but one that I still see fitting with the canon, as he is not excused of his faults here and how he is far from perfect, but he's seen through a mother's eyes, and his bitterness is not for her. I felt quite a lot for Loki here and the fairly bleak look at Loki, both external and internal, worked well for me here!

Bargaining by proantagonist, thor & loki + odin & loki + frigga & loki + other marvel characters, background refereneces to canon pairings, time travel, post-the dark world, some jotunn!loki, 110.4k
    Faced with an eternity without his brother, Loki strikes a bargain to change the past. Post TDW.
    Chapters 1-23: I am going to lose my shit over this fic and write a terrible rec, one that probably doesn't even say half of what I want to convey about my feelings for this story. Let's start with how I thought, with crystal clarity, about a third of the way through the fic, that I didn't even care anymore if this fic wound up horribly betraying me in the ways that fic sometimes does, because what it had given me up to that point already was so exquisite and glorious that I honestly didn't care in that moment. Because this fic made me fucking bawl when it was the right moment to do so--more than once, actually. This is a time-travel fic, where Thor's death in the future sends him into utter desperation and he makes a bargain to go back and change things, except he ends up further back in time than he intended. The thing about time travel fic is that it's such an intriguing idea, one that has such potential to fix things, to contrast against what the traveler has experienced against what the characters around them haven't, that build-up to a reveal and the changes that can be made. It's a difficult one to pull off, though, because you have to be careful of so many things, like staying true to the spirit of the characters and laying down some internal rules to how things would play out, so that it's a wortwhile story to be told instead of just an instant fix, and to find the balance between echoing canon and yet still making this have a point. This fic executes all these things flawlessly, to the point that I am utterly enthralled while reading and I didn't want to come up for air at all.

Right from the beginning, I was wound so incredibly tense because Loki is so... Loki and he's self-destructive and angry and a mess, but none of the people around him are aware of just how much of a mess he is, so they don't know what to look for, which means that he's going to have a new kind of power over everyone and, as much as I want Loki to fix things, that's not really who he is. Except, in some ways, he sort of is in these circumstances, but done in such a way that I wholly believe that Loki would act this way. The fic is utterly exquisite about putting Loki into circumstances that siphon away just a bit of his anger here and there, it chips away at his excuses for why he acts the way he does, it puts him in situations that reshape the way he thinks and sees things, until he's left floundering and his worldview is maybe starting to heal.

The gorgeous thing about this, however, is that it doesn't mean that Loki is suddenly all better, because it's been nearly 90k and he's still a goddamned mess and he's still twisted up inside and he's still so full of anger and poison and raw hurt, in the way he absolutely would be. This is not a fic that's about taking the easy way out and I fully expect more heartbreak or possibly even for my soul to be crushed by the time it gets to the end, which could be any moment now or could be another 100k from now, I honestly don't know. But this is not the same Loki that was the one we saw in TDW, this is not the same Loki that we saw at the beginning of the fic, even when so much is still the same and the author is brilliant for how well portrayed he is. And this is a Loki-centric fic, so much of my talking about it and the fic focuses on his character, but I never feel that the other characters around him aren't done justice to. Each member of his family, as well as the brief scenes of Sif and the W3, are done just as brilliantly. This Thor is Thor and I love that the circumstances of his banishment were changed, so he's a little different here as well, but he maintains that larger than life presence, that utter bulldozer of a personality, yet who is becoming legitimately thoughtful and wise, because of his love for Loki and his worry over his brother.

Every scene where Thor tries to drag the truth out of Loki is gorgeous, because he wrecks Loki emotionally in the best of ways, because Loki loves him so much and is doing all of this for Thor (and for his mother) and Thor refuses to back down, Thor will not surrender Loki for anything, neither to him nor to the madness that's trying to steal his brother away, even as he learns when to back off and give Loki some breathing room now and again. Thor isn't the focus here, but the fic knows that he's very much one of the central pillars of Loki's world and knows how to create this amazing balance between the story being about Loki, but Thor is clearly a main character in the greater whole of Asgard, which is exactly what I want from fic. Because that allows the writer to do what they do brilliantly here--show the progression of Loki's relationships and worldviews. His conversations with Frigga are heartwrenching, as she senses something is wrong with him and won't browbeat it out of him, but makes it clear she loves him with all her heart and the guilt Loki feels at remembering her death is just gorgeous.

And then. Every scene between Odin and Loki. Goddamn. It's complicated and twisting and I'm not sure what's entirely going on, because the writer is very aware of the similarities between the characters (for all that they're different in other ways) and I don't know how it will ultimately end up. But Odin being brilliant and he knows shit is up with Loki and how he handles that, both in good ways and bad ways, is incredible. Eventually, of course, some truths have to come out, and every revelation scene is incredibly satisfying for me as a reader, because of the build-up and because it's so in character that I could just about writhe around on the floor for it. Loki's screaming at his parents when they realize he knows he's Jotunn, I'm serious, there were tears in my eyes for that one. I don't want to say more, because I can't spoil that scene, but goddamn that was one of the most masterful things I've read in awhile. And that's hardly the last utterly fascinating conversation, where Odin looks very sharply at Loki and is slowly unraveling the mystery around him.

But it's not just all relationship or emotional stuff, it's also plot, as Loki tries to put right all the things that went wrong or that would put his family in danger. This means more time acting as Asgard's king in a legitimate way and how he handles that and what that means for his relationship with Jotunheim. His handling of everything with Malekith and the Aether, both in how he has to try to hide what he knows ahead of time (and why he can't say more), is deliciously done and so interesting, because he's using what he knows from the first timeline and yet things are changing and he can't always predict what will happen differently--which often makes for some of the most tension-filled scenes I've read in a fic in a long time. I was practically tripping over myself to read just "a few more pages" before bed, staying up far later than I should have because I could not put it down.

I want to talk so much more about this fic, I want to talk about specific scenes, I want to talk about every notch on the dial of Loki's anger that's cycled through, I want to talk about the way Thor is this huge presence in Loki's life, I want to talk about the way he won't let go of Loki and how he steamrolls right over Loki's protests and yet he's impossible not to love so dearly, I want to talk about the brilliant Odin characterization, I want to talk about where I think the plot might be headed, I want to talk about how my heart was in my throat when Algrim came to Asgard, I want to talk about Odin being so angry with Loki, who has unleashed all this hatred at him, who is and yet isn't the same as he was in the first timeline, I want to talk about all of this. I want to even sit down and read the comments other people have left and then rewrite this rec to be twice as long as it already is (except I don't trust this fandom to react well to the complicated circumstances of this fic, because the WHOLE POINT is that it's complicated and it's not about pointing fingers of blame and that's why THIS IS THE TIME TRAVEL FIC OF MY DREAMS), I want to take notes while rereading chapters, and I just really, really want to make people read it with me. READ IT, OKAY.

    Chapters 24: When you're reading a fic for awhile, catch up, wait for a bit, and then have a new chapter, yout hink that it can't measure up, you think, oh, it won't make me cry again or anything, even if I greatly enjoy it. And most of this chapter was like, though that did not take away from the quality of it, as it was still just as fascinating and engrossing and constructing something enthralling as ever! The world-building of Jotunheim was excellent, the things Loki learned while there, the use of Helblindi and Byleister were perfect! I would have been interested in them just for their own sake (both were perfect, I loved Helblindi's almost calm, literal way of speaking and irritating, aggressive little shit Byleister was seriously possibly my favorite version of the character yet!), but even more so for how the fic used them to dismantle that one last issue he had, how all his excuses were gone now, how there's a new sense of peace in him that's been earned, both by the character and the fic. The brief moments of Loki experiencing being an older brother were also perfect--hilarious and with a point to them, to help him learn just a bit more still.

Then the final thousand words of this chapter came and, oh, hey, there's where all my tears went. The combination of how at peace he is with his fate, the way Thor hangs on so tightly but has to watch Loki fall away again, how ready Loki is to die now... it completely wrecked me, because this author did such a masterful job on this fic. Sure, it's interesting on a "exploring alien worlds is cool!" level, it's fun to see the different ways authors come up with bringing culture and life to Jotunheim, and I would have been happy to spend more time there, even as anxious as I was to get back to the rest of the story. But seeing Loki spend time there, all these other excuses melted away from him and deliberately peeled away by the story, you understood that he was ready to see the Jotnar as people instead of monsters, that he was ready to see that his actions were his own, rather than because he was from a race of monsters. And I love that they weren't perfect and peaceful and loving, but instead that they were all too... well, not human, but normal. Irritating at times, admirable at other times, and full of their own personalities and probably their own stories, even if we didn't have time to get into them.

I am so anticapting the ending of this one and yet dreading it all the same. orz

    Chapters 25: One of the things I felt most strongly (all over again) while reading this chapter is that this is a time travel fic that gets the point of what makes time travel fic the most delicious for me--that it's not about erasing the past or undoing those events, that this story wouldn't have even half of its impact if those things had never happened. This is a story that's absolutely about growing from there, even as Loki goes back and changes things, that they had to happen so that he could come to terms with himself and mend his sense of self and all the damage that that anger did to him. It's part of him, it always will be, but the point is that reliving those years helped him grow from it. And then you put that together with the same sense of... in the previous chapter's rec, I mentioned that reading a fic chapter to chapter gives you that feeling of, "Oh, I've built this fic up so much, it can't possibly hit me as hard again without the same amount of time to build up to the emotional climaxes." and that proves true for the first 2/3rds of the fic and then, wham, I'm crying again. I had a few face-crumpling moments (literally my face made that squishy look where I start to get a little weepy, but I wasn't quite at tears yet) but then, by the end, yeah, this got me.

Because the emotional climax of this story was masterful, a brilliant weaving together of the past timeline with this one, the way Odin especially is written is breathtaking and everything all just fits together with what we know of canon and what we've seen in this timeline. Loki is beautifully written and I was practically fidgeting through the whole chapter, because it was a struggle not to trip over myself to get to the next line given just how deeply enthralled I was. This is an absolute must read in the fandom and post-TDW fic that fixes the tragedies while adding new ones and not having those things be a waste. They had to happen to get the characters where they are here! But I can't talk much more about that without going into spoilers that I really don't think you should be warned about ahead of time, so beyond this point I will give a SPOILERS FOR THIS CHAPTER warning.

Because I really do need to talk about the events of previous chapters and their meaning and what happened here. I strongly suspected what was going to happen here, as I'd read some of the comments and theories going on there, which made sense to me given the little clues along the way, but I was blown over by how they didn't affect the impact of it at all, I sitll felt jumpy and restless and fidgeting because I was so anxious about how it would all go down and then it was happening and a;slkdjfal;kjs is basically all I can come up with! Loki's reaction sent me into tears because it was just such the perfect culmination--that entire conversation where Odin is yelling at him, where he is so angry at Loki for all this shit, both in the current timeline and the previous one now that he remembers it, but the fic breathtakingly explains why Odin acted the way he did and gave depth to the things he said and put the two of them together beautifully, they made sense together, how we saw two such different reactions from a character, how they were the same person in just slightly different circumstances. Gorgeous. And this is the chapter where I realized, yeah, why Loki's parents' deaths were necessary to his character arc--for him to be able to grieve in a way that doesn't end in his ruination of himself.

Yes, of course I would have preferred that everything was fixed and happy and everyone got to live! But the fic had painted a specific path for itself and it stuck to it, this was clearly planned from the beginning and the little clues along the way were beautifully done and it made sense to me, that Loki had to learn to deal with loss in a way that didn't break him. And, oh, how complicated everyone is here, how no one is wholly good or bad, no one is perfect, how Odin and Loki are alike in a lot of ways and we see that all the more clearly, as they're the focus of much of this fic! But then there's Thor, who has such nobility at heart, but there's a lot piled on him and everything that breaks over him, the dozen different things that crash over him all at once, it's got to be a brutal day, even as I know it won't break him. The most beautiful thing this fic does is showing us Loki's more sympathetic and good-intentioned side but not letting go of just how much he hurts the people that care about him, that all the self-recrimination and sorrow in the world don't mean he's not still hurting people. And that the fic accepts this and portrays it as this complicated thing, is brilliant.

    ALL: I had to wait a week to read the final chapter of this fic because I honestly was not ready and part of me is terribly sad that I will have no more of this. Good post-TDW fic is so terribly hard to find, but this fic is so well-done that it fills the gap of a dozen of them, so I'm torn between being satisfied and yet maybe now wanting more of this kind of thing all the more. I've talked twice before about what time travel fic done right means to me, but it's still true here, that this is a story that doesn't seek to undo the importance of canon events, because the events of this fic would be meaningless without them, and that is how you do time travel fic! It's also about slowly stripping away the excuses Loki used for his actions, both to redeem him/grant him some peace, but also to help him truly repair things and understand the why of it. This isn't a story that's about punishing Loki or cutting out the sympathy for him, but instead about healing and repairing him, that it's about how he's put into the right circumstances and given the time to come to terms with them.

And it's also still true that I got teary-eyed during the chapter despite high expectations and the assumption that, oh, the fic couldn't do it to me again. I was so wary about Loki's trial here, his self-sabotage streak still going strong and all those who wanted his head, but reading through it, I understood why it was necessary (as so much in this fic becomes necessary when I got to the end and thought about how things might have gone differently, had events been tweaked here and there, that these were choices made with deliberation by the author), why it needed to turn out the way it did. It was painful, but did justice to everything the story needed in these final moments. And, oh, that it was down to Thor and Loki in the end. That's just as it needed to be. It works on a narrative level, because there are so many interesting relationships Loki has in this story, so many that are important and drove so much of the fic, but at the end, it always seems to come down to those two, but it also works on a character level because, oh, you may not see it as directly as you do with Loki, but this was not an easy road for Thor, either. His reasonings during Loki's trial, when you start to understand what he's doing, are just... feelings-crushing, because this is how it would go, now that Thor better understands Loki, after all that's happened.

This is a fic about using what we've seen in canon, addressing those issues, but not trying to tear them down as if they'd never happened, both in terms of plot, but also in terms of character. This isn't about forgetting that the canon events happened or undoing them, this is about moving forward from them, for all that it's a time travel fic. This is about Loki learning to make peace with himself, learning to let others in, and learning to understand that he's not disconnected from everyone else, that what happens to him affects other people. And, fuck, I think this fic may have spoiled me for wanting more plotty post-TDW fic and my high expectations out of them! Which is both a blessing and a curse, but one I will absolutely take, every time.

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